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The Rumblings of Nobody / Nepomembno Godrnjanje

Things are progressing. Today we have two viewings of our apartment here in Bayreuth. I never liked giving our home up for display. First experience with letting strangers into my home was when we sold our apartment in Ljubljana that we lived in 20+ years. Sitting and listening to strangers comment what is wrong with the home you loved is annoying at best. Second time was when we sold our apartment in Grosuplje. Again, when I had to listen and explain about thing that our apartment that we absolutely adored hasn`t got, I just wanted to shove them out of the balcony. The third time was when we had to rent out our apartment before going to Bayreuth. People who came were not so interested in our apartment as much as finding faults to lower the price. In the end we lowered the price for a couple that had only nice things to say about our home. There you go. But now I will not take things too much to hearth cause this is not our apartment although we love this apartment.

On Monday I had one of more embarrassing karate practices yet. We had to demonstrate different kata (sensei chose which one we had to do). And of course when it was time for me, he chose a kata I don`t know (this is no excuse, because I had ample time to learn it, I just preferred to play games at home instead dedicating my time for a thing I love – »but I love gaming also!« 🙁 ). So it was kind of embarrassing, looking confused when all these lower belts were watching. But luckily I have learned that a little humility can do a world of good (e.g. now I know this kata 🙂 ).

And there are two things that can pick me up when feeling a little low or humiliated. First is to let the kids get me in a better mood. Lately they have been sort of demanding but there are rare opportunities that make me laugh. For instance yesterday Ambrož learned how to throw a Frisbee (the real one not the one in the Wii) – we had so much fun. And Mojca has been doing some really impressive pictures. This birds

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give even me (not saying I am an accomplished artist, I just expected that I am able to draw a better bird than a four year old) pause. If I tried I would not have produced such a simple and perfect depiction of a bird. Second thing that gets me in a better mood is music and dancing. If someone would record me alone in the apartment trying to get in a better mood, it would look something like this (with awesome moves and everything):

Paula is home with me when I am writing this. She feel a bit off, so I convinced her to take some time to catch breath and feel better. It is nice to have company in these morning hours. Feels less empty. Her work is progressing nicely although Stephan and her had some misfortunes (something about wrong concentrations of some dissolutions – god knows of what they are speaking). But I bet they will handle things.

Things are quiet, like before a storm. Storm in a form of our exodus to Scotland.

Slovenec nerga:

Stvari se razvijajo. Danes imamo planirana dva ogleda našega stanovanja tukaj v Bayreuthu. Nikoli nisem bil navdušen, ko je bilo treba odpreti vrata doma na ogled tujcem. Prva izkušnja z ogledi stanovanja je bila, ko smo prodajali naše stanovanje na Vodmatu, v katerem smo živeli več kot dvajset let. Sedenje in poslušanje kritik na dom, ki si ga imel rad, je bilo v najboljšem primeru nadležno. Drugič sem moral skozi enako izkušnjo, ko sva s Paulo prodajala svoje stanovanje v Grosupljem. Ko sem moral razlagati vse, kar stanovanje nima, sem si zamišljal, da bi “obiske” vrgel čez balkon. Tretjič pa je bila izkušnja z iskanjem najemnikov za stanovanje. Ljudje, ki so prišli na ogled večinoma niso bili zainteresirani za stanovanje, temveč za njegove pomanjkljivosti, da so potem zbijali ceno. Na koncu sva midva znižala ceno za prijeten par, ki je imel o najinem stanovanju le lepe besede. In tako je bilo. Sedaj pa si ne bom ogledov gnal k srcu, ker ni najino stanovanje, čeprav nama je zelo všeč.

V ponedeljek sem preživel enega bolj sramotilnih treningov do sedaj. Morali smo demonstrirati kate (katere, je na mestu določil sensei). In seveda, ko je bil čas zame, je izbral kato, ki je nisem poznal (to ni izgovor, ker sem imel dovolj časa, da bi se jo naučil, le da sem raje prosti čas prebijal pred računalnikom v omami igric – če pa jih tako rad igram 😀 ). In je bilo nekako sramotno, ko sem se brezglavo potikal po tatamiju pred vsemi temi nižjimi pasovi. Ampak na srečo se je ta izkušnja naučila malo ponižnosti, ki je velikokrat koristna (npr. Sedaj znam to kato 🙂 ).

Ko se počutim osramočenega ali bolj brez energije, me v boljše stanje spravita dve stvari. Prva sta otroka s svojimi smešnimi ali uspešnimi potezami. Ambrož se je pretekli dan naučil metati frizbi (pravega, ne tistega na Wii) – in sva se ob učenju oba zelo zabavala. Mojca pa je zadnje čase spet kreativna pri risanju. Zgornji ptici meni (pa s tem ne mislim, da bi bil dober slikar, ampak pričakujem, da znam narisati boljšo ptico od štiriletnice) ne bi uspelo narisati tako preprosto in prepričljivo, kot je to uspelo Mojci. Druga stvar, ki me običajno spravi v dobro voljo je glasba in ples. Če bi me kdo kdaj posnel samega v stanovanju, ko se tako spravljam v boljšo voljo, bi izgledalo nekako tako kot posnetek policaja zgoraj, ki je ob poslušanju glasbe pozabil ugasniti nadzorno kamero v avtu.

Ko to pišem, je Paula z mano doma. Se ne počuti 100%, zato sem jo prepričal, da bi si vzela malo časa, da zadiha in se počuti malo bolje. Lepo je imeti družbo v teh jutranjih urah. Stanovanje deluje manj osamljeno. Njeno delo sicer lepo napreduje, sta pa imela s Stephanom malce nesreče pri zadnjem poskusu (nekaj z nekimi koncentracijami in raztopinami – sam bog ve kaj mi govori 😀 ). sem pa prepričan, da bosta uredila zadeve, kot je treba.

Stvari so tihe, kot pred nevihto. Nevihto v obliki naše selitve na Škotsko.

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